Hey friends! 

I have been really struggling with what to write lately (clearly, I haven't written anything in forever!). I just wanted to start off and say thank you SO, SO much to everyone who has donated to me. I really cannot tell you how much I appreciate you and especially in this crazy time for donating but also praying for me and thinking of me. It means a lot. 

Today I had to stop my devotions and start typing because I just had this overwhelming sense of hopefulness. I am so excited for my trip and even just journaling outside I got so excited! After some self reflection, which I feel like I am doing a lot of lately, I've really been able to see where God is working in my life, even right now to prepare me for the next year. It's so crazy to me how God works and even since October seeing the progress not just in my life but spiritually. 

The last few months I've felt like "well, now what God" and almost frustrated with my current situation. In all reality it was just me wanting to take back control what I have given Him. Walking through the unknown is such a scary concept to me, but looking back and seeing the progress I've made, I feel dumb for even trying to "gain that control" back. I know for me I always feel better when I can give someone else a task but I reap the benefits. Besides the ones out there (aka perfectionists) who doesn't love that? Giving God your everything is a little different but still scary. I'm not sure what will come out of it or what my life will look like even in the next couple months. All I know is I give Him control even in this very, very, very uncertain time, and that my friends, is where I am at now!