Coming into this new season of my life I had been really struggling with feeling and knowing God’s love. I felt like God was mad at me, like He was distant, and overall just being mean. Since being here, and even more so after a moment at the conference, I have seen how kind and sweet He’s been to me. On the last day of the conference, during worship, I couldn’t stop picturing two hands holding each other. I later had someone from the AIM Guatemala team speak truth into my picture. They spoke over me that God had never actually left me. That He was constant, always there, and was never mad at me or upset. I couldn’t help but breakdown and go back to moments where I thought God had let go of my hand when really He was holding on tighter. All the times I had let go of His hand, He was right there ready to grab it again. I’ve had somewhat of a rough get go which will be in my next blog so make sure to subscribe for that! Even with the difficulties that have been going on, I know that He is still here. He’s not leaving me; and even when I don’t understand why everything is happening, God has a reason. There is a purpose behind this season, and I know I don’t need to let go because I’m fearful that “God might leave anyway” or that He will turn away because I’m projecting my hurts, rather than giving them to Him. I get to hold tighter and know He is sweet, kind, patient, forgiving, gracious, and He absolutely never leaves.